“Here’s my heart LORD….speak what is True”, this praise song has been in my mind lately, but do I dare to honestly pray this? Am I truly willing to allow the Holy Spirit to search me, try me and expose those areas of my life that are not surrendered to Him? Am I willing to lay those areas down…to walk away from them…to allow the Spirit to transform me and then to walk in obedience?
There is a scene from the LOTR where Frodo is standing on the shore, holding the ring in his hand; a battle rages behind him and a pivotal decision lay before him. An exchange from earlier in the movie echoes in my mind:
Frodo: “I know what I must do, it’s just… I’m afraid to do it.”
Galadriel: “Even the smallest person can change the course of the future.”
This scene always has had an impact on me, I can identify with Frodo…perhaps we have all been, or will be, at such a crossroads. I feel as though I am at such a crossroad, that the LORD is inviting me deeper…I know what I must do; it just…I’m afraid to do it. The Holy Spirit whispers to my spirit, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged, for the LORD your GOD will be with you wherever you go.” ~Joshua 1:9
Courage is not about feeling no fear…but rather having the fortitude and determination to continue in the face of it…with the assurance that the LORD of LORDs and the King of Kings goes before me and with me. So, I pray Psalm 139:23-24…Search me, God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way I me and lead me in the way everlasting.” And Ezekiel 36:26…Give me a new heart and a new spirit; O LORD, remove my heart of stone and give me a heart of flesh. One that beats in time with Yours!